Reincarnation

I studied Philosophy and Ethics at A Level and learnt about reincarnation, whether I believe in it or not I'm still not sure. I like the idea of every cycle having a new beginning though. Experience certain situations and if they don't work out, try and try again until they do.

I've met someone since my last post. We've been talking for around two weeks and we met up yesterday. I think I really like him, something that I haven't felt for a long time. I've endured certain people for purely selfish reasons, but liking someone is very different. I'm genuinely interested in everything that he has to say, he has a very pure heart and he makes me feel safe and comfortable in his company. I think he feels the same way but you can never be sure, and it's the unknown that makes it so very scary for me. I haven't even thought about lowering my barriers for anyone since James, I know I'm being silly and I will have to at some point but deciding who is worth it is a different story. I'm excited for where this could go, I have a very vivid, child-like imagination that is running away with all sorts of possibilities.

With me, one of the most attractive qualities in a person is intelligence. I need someone to stimulate me mentally and to challenge, to disagree and to not let me get away with all sorts. He provides that, and so much more. A natural connection isn't something you just stumble across, especially when you have such high expectations as I do. He just bulldozed into my life one day and I haven't been able to think of anything else since. It didn't work out with James, but that doesn't mean that I have to keep my barriers up and never try again. I don't know what will happen and I don't want to, I'd rather just sit back in a squishy armchair and watch the future unfold, all the while hoping for the best.